I'm not going to try to dress things up, or find just the right way to say it. Plain and simple, on Monday evening at dinner time, while the chicken was roasting, he told me he thought I needed to drive him to the hospital. Thank God I didn't. Thank God I called 911. I thank God at every bend of this road that we're on, that we made the decisions that we've made so far on how to handle the unrecognized bomb that was quietly going off in our midst. Those decisions seem to me to have been God-directed.
I don't have the time or the energy to recount all the details right now. This week has been a whirl of driving to the hospital, and coming back home exhausted. Of prayers, and tears. Of hopes that soared, and hopes that crashed to the ground, and hopes that then clawed their way back up to the top of the rim of the pit into which they'd just been kicked.
I don't know how all this is going to turn out.
Tonight, Wednesday night, he's sleeping in his hospital bed, thanks to the fine folks who developed Ambien, and I'm about to go and see if they might offer me a little help as well. We have one more day to wait for the effects of the blood thinning drug Plavix to wear off, so that on Friday, the doctors can slice and reroute his "widow maker" artery with his mammary artery, and come up with a working facsimile of a major blood vessel, so that he can reclaim the life that came terribly close to slipping away from him on Monday evening.
We'll take all the prayers you've got.
I absolutely believe that God DIDN'T allow him to slip away on Monday evening BECAUSE there are good works, and lots of them, for my Big Bison still to do in his life. But we covet your prayers for a successful surgery.
Friends and family have come to stay with us and help us here in the Boonies, and they and my great big dogs stand watch over the house. Your help and support and most of all, your prayers mean more to me than I can say.
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This post was so poignant...and yet so hopeful. Know that you both are in our prayers. You are loved. Please tell BB that I'm so proud of him for paying attention and for getting help -- so many men (and women!) don't. :(
I wake up in the morning and you and BB come to mind. You were the last thing on my mind last night. We are to pray without ceasing -- and I am, my friend!
Praying for all of you Susan! God has you in His hand and I pray that you continue to see His love and mercy.
Sending you and your family my thoughts and prayers. XO♥
Oh Susan - - - I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through.
Praying right now.
I will pray and I shared your blog post on my Facebook wall. Love you!
Praying!
~Luke
Susan! You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers! What a scare. Sending you lot of hugs too.
Praying for you both. What a sobering experience.
Praying!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sending lots of positive thoughts yours and your husband's way.
OH NO! Wow. Thank God for you and your quick reactions, and best wishes for the recovery!
Praying for all of you, Susan.
Praying for you both and thanking God for His evident direction in all of this. May he hold you both as you travel through this difficulty.
Egads....will be praying Susan.
I pray that you, the BB and your children will be very aware of God's strong, loving arms around you. Praying for a successful outcome to surgery, minimal invasiveness, no complications, and quick healing.
Sending lots of love your way.
praying here -- sending love and hugs to you.
I am so glad you called 911. I am glad God gave you the insight to call 911. My dad was at my house when my mother asked if he wanted us to call 911. I had already called and am thankful every day that he is still with us.
Praying for the surgeon and BB and you and your children. Praying for a speedy recovery.
I'm on it! My sincere prayers are with you and BB. Wm
Susan, God is with you and your husband. I will pray for him, and peace and wisdom for you. I'm so sorry for your pain, but you have a very apparent strength in you, and with your family around, I know it will be okay.
-Elizabeth Grimes
I'm so sorry to hear this.
I'm sending my best, healing thoughts to the Big Bison. And big hugs to you, Susan.
Praying, and praying hard!
Praying for you, for BB, and for God to reveal himself to you both in a never-before-seen way.
Susan, I don't know if I've ever commented on one of your posts so I guess that makes me a lurker but wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and your husband and prayers going up for him!
Big Suz,
We're 5 minutes from the hospital if you need a place to crash, convalesce, convene, eat, regroup, etc. Call on us like you'd expect us to call on you.
The Nolans
Keeping you and your family in my prayers. I'm so thankful the "what is" is much better than the "what ifs."
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Susan, this has been in my reader - unread until 8:45 on Friday morn. I prayed for your hubby, his docs, your kids, and that the Lord would see you all through to clear passage for life blood's flow.
I have been in your shoes more times than I care to count (other life-threatening medical issues, not heart attack) and the prayers really do sustain you.
Praying this moment, perhaps the very moment your Bison is under the knife and his surgeon is mapping out a detour pathway.
God's grace to you.
Wow, Susan! I just "happened" to see this post.
"Thank you, Lord, for saving his life. And may the surgery go well this morning."
Casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7
Praying for His peace as you wait for the surgery and for your husband to have a quick recovery so he can be come home soon.
so thankful you called 911 - good choice. Been holding you all in my thoughts.
Sending Prayers from NY, I am a friend of a friend. I went through this a year ago, my husband had a massive heart attack last May, he was 43 yrs old. He is doing very well today. He had a defibrillator/pacemaker put in Last august. He is back at work. I know how stressful it is on the children and yourself. Please if I can be a cybershoulder or someone you would want to ask questions, feel free! seuss221@gmail.com
Susan
Susan, praying for you and your family. I just saw this tonight.
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